I was reading an article about PTSD. It was called “21 Things People Don’t Realize You’re Doing Because of Your PTSD”. (Link below) I was reading through the list, which consisted of survivors sharing things they do because of their PTSD. I was identifying with most of them. Then, I got to #17 and I […]
My brain is trying to protect me. That’s what my research tells me. I want desperately to remember. I continue to look for the key. I don’t know what I would do if I quit looking. Perish? Fall into a depressive state even worse than the one I am in now? I try so hard […]
It’s the oddest thing. KNOWING something happened, yet not having a complete visual memory. It’s coming back to me. Bit by bit. I have a partial memory. It’s the beginning of something happening. The part just before my brain says something is not right, and survival mode takes over. I’m going to make sure people […]
When it comes to narcissistic abuse, especially that of the covert variety, it can be hard for us to put a finger on what is happening to us. Your awareness is limited to the knowledge that there is an internal struggle within. The struggle is for your awareness. The innate response is to block it […]
This video was made on May 27th, 2017. I feel like I am stuck in a freeze state sometimes. That is my main response to trauma. I tend to freeze and dissociate by distracting myself or zoning out. When I’m feeling especially triggered I tend to be drawn to my bed and want to […]
