In the last month I have gone from being stuck in bed, to no longer being stuck there anymore. I got to the point where I was experiencing boredom and frustration when I would sit on my bed, and I needed more. Now to work on leaving the house more. Watch the video for more.
Sometimes, we don’t remember. Can’t remember. Won’t remember. Sometimes, I think I remember, but at the same time it’s not like a real memory. I wrote things in my journal I don’t remember. Can’t remember. Won’t remember. I wrote these things, but I don’t feel anything. I don’t feel like they are true memories. Yet, […]
Hi all, First of all, thank you for the follow. It is much appreciated. If you have followed me for a while, and if you haven’t already, please make sure you change your bookmark from pokingholesblog.com to cptsdwarrior.com. I have said this before, but it seems when I write I am feeling especially distraught. Having […]
Sunday, May 20th, 2018 Yesterday, the look on my husband’s face threw me into a doozy of an emotional flashback. I was crying on the beach during our walk. Permeating the flashback were thoughts of my dad. Nothing specific, just kept thinking of him. I always think that when somebody’s facial expressions put me into […]
I just got back from a weekend with my narcissistic in-laws. My narcissistic father in-law married his narcissistic girlfriend. Once again, I am still realizing the shots they threw in their sick covert manner. I so wish I had recorded the toasts. All of her families’ toasts, including her own, were about what she/they had […]
In this vlog I discuss the importance of being able to recognize when you are having an emotional flashback. I discuss a little more about the kinds of abuse I endured as a child. I also discuss dissociation and the fact that I may have dissociated as a small child to block out the times […]
