That Gut Feeling

That Gut Feeling.

You know that gut feeling you get when you’re about to do something, or say something, and it feels like you should step back?

That gut feeling is meant to protect us, it’s our instinct trying to keep us safe.

Why do I sometimes still ignore it?

I mean, intellectually I get that my narcissistic mother gaslighted me so much that I learned to not trust my own instinct. I learned to question myself and not trust myself.

It still makes me mad at myself sometimes though.

I have to continually remind myself that I am unlearning everything my mother taught me about who I am.

I’m trying so hard to listen to my inner guidance, my gut instinct, that gut feeling I get that is my friend, but yet I still sometimes question it and do what that instinct is telling me not to do.

I’m still a work in progress.

I’m grateful for the times when I do listen and trust myself enough to listen to that gut feeling. Because usually when I don’t listen it causes problems.

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