Watch "CPTSD: Is the Freeze Response an Indicator of Early Childhood Trauma?" on YouTube

  This video was made on May 27th, 2017. I feel like I am stuck in a freeze state sometimes. That is my main response to trauma. I tend to freeze and dissociate by distracting myself or zoning out. When I’m feeling especially triggered I tend to be drawn to my bed and want to […]

My Body Remembers – Somatic Flashbacks

I think somebody hurt me really bad when I was little…too little to remember. I can’t be sure who, but at such a young age it can only be somebody from my immediate family of origin. I think it was either my narcissistic mother, or my 2nd eldest sister who I believe is a malignant […]

Narcissistic Abuse: My Golden Child Sister

I always looked up to her. I always sought her opinion on important matters. I always looked forward to sharing things with her, and having long talks with her about whatever. I always had her best interests at heart. That was until, I realized the truth. When my golden child sister and narcissistic mother discarded […]

Narcissism: I'm the Lost Child of my family

I think I was wrong about being a former golden child. I don’t think I ever was. I was/am the lost child. I was/am shy and introverted. I worshiped my narcissistic mother and narcissistic golden child sister so they would love me. When I began to speak up and call them on their bullshit, they […]