https://youtu.be/PQD4klK4Rvo This video was made on May 27th, 2017. I feel like I am stuck in a freeze state sometimes. That is my main response to trauma. I tend to freeze and dissociate by distracting myself or zoning out. When I’m feeling especially triggered I tend to be drawn to my bed and want […]
As a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence. I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I […]
I have been struggling with recovery even after being 20 months no contact with my narcissistic mother. I have been doing some research, which has led me to my problem. Acceptance. Meredith’s Video on her youtube channel, Inner Integration: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5oGdY9MqISw Skip ahead to 10:36 to get to the part I am referring to. Resources:This is […]
Growing up, we were close, both in age, and emotionally. We have always been mistaken as twins, and still to this day somebody will call one of us by the other’s name. I noticed things changing when she became a teenager and was drinking a lot and getting into trouble. Contrary to what you hear about […]
I got a text from my narcissistic mother on Sunday. I haven’t received any communication from her for over a year because I had her blocked from my phone. Somehow, she got through anyway. I am feeling very triggered by this. I keep catching myself getting pulled into an emotional flashback several times a day. […]
My journal entries following the discovery that my mother was a narcissist. This is after the discard when I am moving out of my narcissistic mother’s home, going through withdrawal from a/d’s, and eventually going no contact. June 27th/15 – Sept 17/15.
In this video I discuss the different aspects of my narcissistic family and the roles different family members played.