This is an open letter to my narcissistic mother for Mother’s Day. I have found all of the Mother’s Day advertising this past week to be really triggering. Writing this and making this video was very cathartic for me. I have been no contact with most of my family of origin for 7 months now. […]
I had a lot of fun making this video. I hope you learn something new and enjoy. 🙂 Symptoms of CPTSD (click the link for a downloadable word document of the video Transcript) Symptoms of CPTSD: Emotional Flashbacks (typically do not have a visual component): These involve negative feelings such as Anger, Shame, Humiliation, Abandonment, […]
I recently started a YouTube channel. I am going to post the video transcripts and a link to the videos on this blog. The following is the first video I uploaded to YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o6T8XeRzTfk Video Transcript: Welcome to my Channel: I’m the Daughter of a Narcissistic Mother Hi Everybody, Welcome to my channel. I’m a […]
I have been feeling very afraid and very guilty lately. It’s almost like I’m picking up on the vibes of the smear campaign that is most certainly going on against me, and maybe also against my husband. Am I just being paranoid? I hope so, but I am dealing with narcissists, so it is most […]
I’m so lost and confused. I keep going back and forth between believing that my mom and golden child sister are narcissists, and maybe I’m just being too sensitive, or I’m acting like a spoiled baby. I’m used to being the one to apologize to make things better between mom and I after a disagreement. […]
I think I was wrong about being a former golden child. I don’t think I ever was. I was/am the lost child. I was/am shy and introverted. I worshiped my narcissistic mother and narcissistic golden child sister so they would love me. When I began to speak up and call them on their bullshit, they […]
I tried to go no contact with my narc mom and narc golden child sister. I thought it would be good for me to stay away for a while. Then, I decided I’m too sentimental to do that to my family. Maybe I’m wrong about them. I love them so much and the 3 of […]
I’m feeling confused. I feel this way when I try to sink back into the ignorance I’ve lived my life in before the discovery. The discovery that I am the daughter of a narcissistic mother. It’s a pretty big thing to wrap your head around. I’m afraid sometimes to continue because I’m afraid of what […]
I’ve been trying to remember what prompted me to look into my mother’s behaviour while I was growing up. I guess I’m looking for a way to mark the beginning of the big discovery. Here is a little background on the past few months. I’d been diagnosed with depression and anxiety (again) last March (2014). […]