I’m odd. I want to be close to other people, and can sometimes allow myself to be. I also want to be alone, and as soon as somebody seems to want to spend time with me, I revolt. Why do I do this? The people that I trusted the most betrayed me, Stabbed me in […]
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After almost five years of not working, can you believe I am being driven to boredom by this job. I sit here waiting for the phone to ring. When the boss comes out of his office I try to look busy. I try to look like I wasn’t just looking at social media, or playing
I Need A Distraction From My Thoughts & Work Isn’t Doing It Read More »
People only bring up your past when they are threatened by your present. When I moved back to my hometown it was something I had wanted from the moment I moved away. I couldn’t wait to move back and get a job teaching in my hometown. Prior to the interview I noticed that the human
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*Potential Trigger* What are Repressed Memories? When we are very young children an event such as sexual abuse can be so traumatic to us that we will bury all memory of the abuse ever happening. It never stays buried though. These memories will lay dormant until a time that our brains feel we are in
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Narcissistic abuse is so insidious that it is common to not realize what is going on before it is too late. By the time you realize something is wrong, you have already fallen victim to the manipulations and abusive tactics of the narcissist in your life and are suffering from the symptoms of complex post
You have CPTSD: Now What? Read More »
It’s the oddest thing. KNOWING something happened, yet not having a complete visual memory. It’s coming back to me. Bit by bit. I have a partial memory. It’s the beginning of something happening. The part just before my brain says something is not right, and survival mode takes over. I’m going to make sure people
