Partial Memory of Child Sexual Abuse

3 Commentschild sexual abuse, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, crime of opportunity, csa, daughter of a narcissistic mother, donm, incest, partial memory, repressed memories

*Potential Trigger* I have a partial memory, which I dismissed from my mind the first few times I had it.  In this memory, I am small and wearing a nightgown. That’s what us girls wore to bed to sleep in when we were little. It is like a long sleeved flannel dress.  In this memory […]

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Growing Up With A Narcissistic Sibling

3 Commentscomplex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, daughter of a narcissistic mother, malignant narcissist, narcissistic family, narcissistic sibling, narcissistic sister, triangulation

The memories I have of my early childhood are very few and far between. All I have are my gut feelings. I’ve learned to trust those. You may call it your instincts or your intuition, but it’s all the same. I was alway afraid of my 2nd eldest sister. She was 8 when I was […]

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Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers: Identifying What We Are Feeling

2 Commentscptsd, CPTSD Recovery, daughter of a narcissistic mother, daughters of narcissistic mothers, donm, emotional flashbacks, feelings, Grief, karyl mcbride, triggered, will i ever be good enough

It is 2:58 am. I am in my office. I came in here to write a blog post, but I keep shuffling papers and journals around and can’t shake this feeling of an impending emotional flashback. I am extremely irritable. I am sad. My self esteem is very low. I feel like I am a […]

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Creating Conflict because of my CPTSD

acon, anger, awakening, c-ptsd, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, conflict, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, critical, daughter of a narcissistic mother, donm, outer critic, ptsd, recovery

I was reading an article about PTSD. It was called “21 Things People Don’t Realize You’re Doing Because of Your PTSD”. (Link below) I was reading through the list, which consisted of survivors sharing things they do because of their PTSD. I was identifying with most of them. Then, I got to #17 and I […]

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