family dysfunction - Healing from CPTSD

Narcissistic Abuse: Sometimes, it is the Not Knowing

Aug 16, 2017Poking Holeschild abuse, children of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, denial, depression, dissociation, dysfunctional families, family dysfunction, healing, mindfulness, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Personality Disordercovert narcissist, npd

When it comes to narcissistic abuse, especially that of the covert variety, it can be hard for us to put a finger on what is happening to us. Your awareness is limited to the knowledge that there is an internal struggle within. The struggle is for your awareness. The innate response is to block it […]

Watch "A Weekend with my Narcissistic In-Laws" on YouTube

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https://youtu.be/vsm61jpIyk0 I just got back from a weekend with my narcissistic in-laws. My narcissistic father in-law married his narcissistic girlfriend. Once again, I am still realizing the shots they threw in their sick covert manner. I so wish I had recorded the toasts. All of her families’ toasts, including her own, were about what she/they […]

Corporal Punishment/ "SPANKING" is CHILD ABUSE

Jul 19, 2017Poking Holes1 Commentchildren of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, corporal punishment, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, dysfunctional families, family dysfunction, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, physical assaultchild abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, daughters of narcissistic mothers, discipline, force, hitting, my story, narcissistic moms, physical abuse, physical violence, spanking

In Canada, the country that I live in, the use of physical force on children is an exception to the Criminal Code of Canada. It is illegal to hit someone else, but if you are their parent or legal guardian you are allowed to hit your kids from ages 2 to a teenager. As long […]

My Scapegoat Sister – "It isn't just the golden children that become narcissists"

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Growing up, we were close, both in age, and emotionally. We have always been mistaken as twins, and still to this day somebody will call one of us by the other’s name. I noticed things changing when she became a teenager and was drinking a lot and getting into trouble. Contrary to what you hear about […]

When the Narcissistic Mother Hoovers

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I got a text from my narcissistic mother on Sunday. I haven’t received any communication from her for over a year because I had her blocked from my phone. Somehow, she got through anyway. I am feeling very triggered by this. I keep catching myself getting pulled into an emotional flashback several times a day. […]

Dysfunctional Family Roles: The Lost Child

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I am the lost child of my dysfunctional family. This is an introduction to role of the lost child in a dysfunctional family. Children from dysfunctional families who have been traumatically abused or abandoned develop Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD). https://youtu.be/L4bGJnY62_o

CPTSD Recovery: Managing Emotional Flashbacks

Mar 15, 2017Poking HolesCPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, dysfunctional families, family dysfunction, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Videochild abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, cptsd, cptsd symptoms, daughter of a narcissistic mother, dissociation, emotional flashbacks, physical abuse, splitting

In this vlog I discuss the importance of being able to recognize when you are having an emotional flashback. I discuss a little more about the kinds of abuse I endured as a child. I also discuss dissociation and the fact that I may have dissociated as a small child to block out the times […]