Narcissistic Abuse

Watch "CPTSD: Is the Freeze Response an Indicator of Early Childhood Trauma?" on YouTube

  This video was made on May 27th, 2017. I feel like I am stuck in a freeze state sometimes. That is my main response to trauma. I tend to freeze and dissociate by distracting myself or zoning out. When I’m feeling especially triggered I tend to be drawn to my bed and want to […]

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Corporal Punishment/ "SPANKING" is CHILD ABUSE

In Canada, the country that I live in, the use of physical force on children is an exception to the Criminal Code of Canada.  It is illegal to hit someone else, but if you are their parent or legal guardian you are allowed to hit your kids from ages 2 to a teenager. As long

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On Being Silenced by Narcissistic Mother

As a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence.  I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I

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On Being Silenced by Narcissistic Mother

As a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence.  I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I

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My Scapegoat Sister – "It isn't just the golden children that become narcissists"

Growing up, we were close, both in age, and emotionally. We have always been mistaken as twins, and still to this day somebody will call one of us by the other’s name. I noticed things changing when she became a teenager and was drinking a lot and getting into trouble. Contrary to what you hear about

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When the Narcissistic Mother Hoovers

I got a text from my narcissistic mother on Sunday. I haven’t received any communication from her for over a year because I had her blocked from my phone. Somehow, she got through anyway. I am feeling very triggered by this. I keep catching myself getting pulled into an emotional flashback several times a day.

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Dysfunctional Family Roles: The Lost Child

I am the lost child of my dysfunctional family. This is an introduction to role of the lost child in a dysfunctional family. Children from dysfunctional families who have been traumatically abused or abandoned develop Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD).

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CPTSD Recovery: Managing Emotional Flashbacks

In this vlog I discuss the importance of being able to recognize when you are having an emotional flashback. I discuss a little more about the kinds of abuse I endured as a child. I also discuss dissociation and the fact that I may have dissociated as a small child to block out the times

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