complex post traumatic stress disorder - Healing from CPTSD

What is CPTSD & Can I Recover From it?

Nov 27, 2016Poking Holeschildren of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, CPTSD Recovery, mindfulness, Narcissistic Abuse, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Videoc-ptsd, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, healing, mental health, my story, Narcissism, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic abuse victim syndrome, recovery, Symptoms of CPTSD, youtube

This is episode 2 in the series: “CPTSD Recovery” by Poking Holes on Youtube.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5onCtcEU_pEJXVq3huH_Pw

Narcissistic Abuse: My Golden Child Sister

Nov 24, 2016Poking Holesgolden child, narcissistic abuse recovery, No Contactcomplex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, discard, hoovering, lost child, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, npd, scapegoat, sisters

I always looked up to her. I always sought her opinion on important matters. I always looked forward to sharing things with her, and having long talks with her about whatever. I always had her best interests at heart. That was until, I realized the truth. When my golden child sister and narcissistic mother discarded […]

CPTSD: Today Was Not A Good Day

Nov 24, 2016Poking HolesUncategorizedanxiety, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, depression, emotional flashback, emotional injury, inner critic, lost child, Narcissistic Abuse, poem, poetry

I am a mess.
I keep trying to look for something that is going to help me to feel “normal” again.

Watch "Mother's Day Open Letter to my Narcissistic Mother" on YouTube

May 5, 2016Poking HolesNarcissistic Abuse, Videochild abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, mother's day, narcissistic mothers, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, psycho mom, toxic mom

This is an open letter to my narcissistic mother for Mother’s Day. I have found all of the Mother’s Day advertising this past week to be really triggering. Writing this and making this video was very cathartic for me. I have been no contact with most of my family of origin for 7 months now. […]

Symptoms of CPTSD

Apr 22, 2016Poking HolesCPTSD Recoveryasmr, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, craft therapy, crochet, crochet therapy, daughters of narcissistic mothers, mental health, Narcissism, narcissistic moms, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Symptoms of CPTSD

I had a lot of fun making this video. I hope you learn something new and enjoy. 🙂 Symptoms of CPTSD (click the link for a downloadable word document of the video Transcript) Symptoms of CPTSD: Emotional Flashbacks (typically do not have a visual component): These involve negative feelings such as Anger, Shame, Humiliation, Abandonment, […]

I'm the Daughter of a Narcissistic Mother

Apr 22, 2016Poking HolesNarcissistic Abuse, Videoasmr, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, craft therapy, crochet, crochet therapy, daughters of narcissistic mothers, mental health, my story, Narcissism, narcissistic moms, Narcissistic Personality Disorder

I recently started a YouTube channel. I am going to post the video transcripts and a link to the videos on this blog. The following is the first video I uploaded to YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o6T8XeRzTfk Video Transcript: Welcome to my Channel: I’m the Daughter of a Narcissistic Mother Hi Everybody, Welcome to my channel. I’m a […]

Why do I feel so crazy???!!!

Jan 5, 2016Poking Holescptsd, Narcissistic Abuseanxiety, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, depression, hopelessness

I misinterpret. I overreact. I feel guilty. I feel ashamed. I feel so lost because I feel like I’ve lost my family. I don’t know if I can continue with no contact. I don’t think I can have contact with my narc mom because I come undone with even a text message from her. I’m […]

Narcissism: Don't Poke the Bear

Nov 14, 2015Poking HolesNo Contactacon, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, emotional abuse, flying monkeys, goldenchild, Narcissism, narcissistic mother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, no contact, ptsd, scapegoat, sisters, smear campaign

I have been feeling very afraid and very guilty lately. It’s almost like I’m picking up on the vibes of the smear campaign that is most certainly going on against me, and maybe also against my husband. Am I just being paranoid? I hope so, but I am dealing with narcissists, so it is most […]

Healing from CPTSD

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