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CPTSD: Today Was Not A Good Day

Nov 24, 2016Poking HolesUncategorizedanxiety, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, depression, emotional flashback, emotional injury, inner critic, lost child, Narcissistic Abuse, poem, poetry

I am a mess.
I keep trying to look for something that is going to help me to feel “normal” again.

CPTSD Recovery & Emotional Flashbacks

Oct 27, 2016Poking HolesCPTSD Recovery, crochet therapy, Videoasmr, childhood trauma, complex ptsd, cptsd, craft therapy, crochet, daughters of narcissistic mothers, emotional flashbacks, healing, mindfulness, my story, Narcissistic Abuse, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, no contact, poking holes, recovery, Symptoms of CPTSD, youtube

It’s been one year of no contact between myself and the narcissistic mother. I have only had contact in the past year with one sister, but sadly that also ended last month. I have basically been mourning for a family that lives in the same small town that I do. Weird, but also necessary. I […]

Watch "Mother's Day Open Letter to my Narcissistic Mother" on YouTube

May 5, 2016Poking HolesNarcissistic Abuse, Videochild abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, mother's day, narcissistic mothers, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, psycho mom, toxic mom

This is an open letter to my narcissistic mother for Mother’s Day. I have found all of the Mother’s Day advertising this past week to be really triggering. Writing this and making this video was very cathartic for me. I have been no contact with most of my family of origin for 7 months now. […]

Symptoms of CPTSD

Apr 22, 2016Poking HolesCPTSD Recoveryasmr, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, craft therapy, crochet, crochet therapy, daughters of narcissistic mothers, mental health, Narcissism, narcissistic moms, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Symptoms of CPTSD

I had a lot of fun making this video. I hope you learn something new and enjoy. 🙂 Symptoms of CPTSD (click the link for a downloadable word document of the video Transcript) Symptoms of CPTSD: Emotional Flashbacks (typically do not have a visual component): These involve negative feelings such as Anger, Shame, Humiliation, Abandonment, […]

I'm the Daughter of a Narcissistic Mother

Apr 22, 2016Poking HolesNarcissistic Abuse, Videoasmr, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, craft therapy, crochet, crochet therapy, daughters of narcissistic mothers, mental health, my story, Narcissism, narcissistic moms, Narcissistic Personality Disorder

I recently started a YouTube channel. I am going to post the video transcripts and a link to the videos on this blog. The following is the first video I uploaded to YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o6T8XeRzTfk Video Transcript: Welcome to my Channel: I’m the Daughter of a Narcissistic Mother Hi Everybody, Welcome to my channel. I’m a […]

Narcissism: Don't Poke the Bear

Nov 14, 2015Poking HolesNo Contactacon, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, emotional abuse, flying monkeys, goldenchild, Narcissism, narcissistic mother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, no contact, ptsd, scapegoat, sisters, smear campaign

I have been feeling very afraid and very guilty lately. It’s almost like I’m picking up on the vibes of the smear campaign that is most certainly going on against me, and maybe also against my husband. Am I just being paranoid? I hope so, but I am dealing with narcissists, so it is most […]

Narcissism: My suspicions were validated by my scapegoat sister

Nov 2, 2015Poking Holesdaughters of narcissistic mothersacon, child abuse, childhood trauma, cptsd, donm, narcissistic mom, narcissistic moms, narcissisticabuse, narcmom, npd, ptsd, scapegoat, validation

I finally contacted my sister who was/is the family scapegoat. I was afraid to at first. I held back from doing it for a long time. I was worried about hurting her in some way, and also worried that I would end up getting hurt as well. I sent her a couple of links to webpages […]

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