Narcissism - Healing from CPTSD

CPTSD Recovery: Creating My Authentic Life on The Sims 4

Nov 23, 2017Poking Holes3 CommentsCPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothersacon, adult child of a narcissistic mother, adultchildofnpdmother, anxiety, authentic self, c-ptsd, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, complex trauma, donm, gamer, gaming, gaming for cptsd recovery, healing, live broadcast, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, npd, npd mom, playstation 4, ps4, recovery, social anxiety, socializing, sony, the sims 4, Video, youtube, youtube gaming, youtuber

I had this idea to create “My Authentic Life” on The Sims 4 where I would make a life based on choosing things I wouldn’t normally allow myself to choose. I’ve played the 2 player Sims games back when they still did that. I wish they still did that. Why don’t they still do that? Now, […]

10 Signs You Might Be Dealing With a Narcissist

Nov 22, 2017Poking HolesCPTSD Recovery, Narcissistic Personality Disorderanxiety, confusion, deceit, lies, Narcissism, narcissist, Narcissistic Abuse, npd, youtube

You feel stressed out after spending time with them, and you’re not sure why. 2. You have conflicting feelings for them. For example, they drive you crazy, but you love them so much. 3. You tell them something you consider good news for you, and they don’t seem pleased for you. 4. You show them […]

On Being Silenced by Narcissistic Mother

Jul 19, 2017Poking Holes3 Commentschildren of narcissistic mothers, CPTSD Recovery, dissociation, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, The Lost Childcomplex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, developmental delays, Narcissism, narcissistic moms, Narcissistic Personality Disorder

As a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence. I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I […]

My First Period Story as the Daughter of a Narcissistic Mother

Mar 1, 2017Poking Holesc-ptsd, children of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, complex post traumatic stress disorder, CPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, dysfunctional families, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, perimenopause, psychological disorders, psychology, ptsd, The Lost Child, Videoanxiety, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, daughters, embarrassment, enabling father, first period story, fishing story, humiliation, mental health, my story, Narcissism, narcissistic mother, narcissistic parent, recovery, shame, story time, toxic mom, vlog

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My Body Remembers – Somatic Flashbacks

Dec 6, 2016Poking HolesCPTSD Recoveryanxiety, anxiety attack, baby girl, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, daughter of narcissistic mother, daughters, depression, dissociation, donm, emotional abuse, emotional flashback, emotional injury, emotional manipulation, golden child sister, lost child, malignant narcissist, mental health, my story, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, panic attack, recovery, scapegoat sister, sisters, somatic flashback, somatic memory, somatic pain, trigger

I think somebody hurt me really bad when I was little…too little to remember. I can’t be sure who, but at such a young age it can only be somebody from my immediate family of origin. I think it was either my narcissistic mother, or my 2nd eldest sister who I believe is a malignant […]

Blog Under Construction…lol not really

Nov 28, 2016Poking HolesCPTSD Recovery, No Contactc-ptsd, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, daughter of a narcissistic mother, donm, flying monkeys, narc mom, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, no contact, npd, toxic people

Remember the good old days when your website was “under construction” while you were editing it. Now, you can edit away while your readers continue reading like nothing was happening. I wanted to inform you all that I just finished importing blog posts from my original blog to this one. It is a blog I started when I […]

What is CPTSD & Can I Recover From it?

Nov 27, 2016Poking Holeschildren of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, CPTSD Recovery, mindfulness, Narcissistic Abuse, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Videoc-ptsd, child abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, cptsd, daughters of narcissistic mothers, healing, mental health, my story, Narcissism, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic abuse victim syndrome, recovery, Symptoms of CPTSD, youtube

This is episode 2 in the series: “CPTSD Recovery” by Poking Holes on Youtube.
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