I spent the past 11 years being crushed by guilt because I didn’t make it back to see my father before he passed away in the hospital from lung cancer.

The last day I saw him was in the hospital on Father’s day in 2010. He passed away early in the morning the day we were set to go back to see him again, 6 days later, 11 years ago today.

I wasn’t even aware of why I took his death so hard until I spoke to the psychiatrist and he said it’s like I’m being crushed by guilt and it made me take a good look at everything.

Before, I was told it could be complicated grief, and then I thought it was because of the repressed memory I had come back to me, and now I realize it was me taking the blame once again. Thinking up the worst case scenario and using it to punish myself…yet again.

This EMDR session helped me to release that guilt.

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