On Being Silenced by Narcissistic Mother

As a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence.  I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I […]

Watch "CPTSD: Is the Freeze Response an Indicator of Early Childhood Trauma?" on YouTube

https://youtu.be/PQD4klK4Rvo   This video was made on May 27th, 2017. I feel like I am stuck in a freeze state sometimes. That is my main response to trauma. I tend to freeze and dissociate by distracting myself or zoning out. When I’m feeling especially triggered I tend to be drawn to my bed and want […]

On Being Silenced by Narcissistic Mother

As a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence.  I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I […]

Watch "Accepting the Truth That Your Mom is a Narcissist" on YouTube

I have been struggling with recovery even after being 20 months no contact with my narcissistic mother. I have been doing some research, which has led me to my problem. Acceptance.  Meredith’s Video on her youtube channel, Inner Integration: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5oGdY9MqISw Skip ahead to 10:36 to get to the part I am referring to.  Resources:This is […]

Watch "Accepting the Truth That Your Mom is a Narcissist" on YouTube

I have been struggling with recovery even after being 20 months no contact with my narcissistic mother. I have been doing some research, which has led me to my problem. Acceptance.  Meredith’s Video on her youtube channel, Inner Integration: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5oGdY9MqISw Skip ahead to 10:36 to get to the part I am referring to.  Resources:This is […]

Watch "CPTSD: Causes, Key Developmental Arrests, Symptoms, & Recovery" on YouTube

In this video I discuss the causes, key developmental arrests, symptoms, and recovery aspects of CPTSD.

I’ve made other videos that cover the varying aspects individually, but in this video I hit all the key elements of each in one video.

Making these videos helps me to gain a deeper understanding of CPTSD, and I hope it helps you too.

Resources:
Pete Walker’s book: “Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving”
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Disclaimer:
I am not a mental health professional nor am I an academic expert on Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) or complex post traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD). I am here to share my story, both past and present, as I continue on a journey of awakening and recovery from CPTSD.

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Watch "Stockholm Syndrome: Daughter of a Narcissistic Mother" on YouTube

I am the daughter of a narcissistic mother, and I have Stockholm Syndrome. Stockholm Syndrome is a strong emotional bond between an abused person and their abuser, also known as a Trauma Bond. Victims of Stockholm Syndrome develop compassion and loyalty toward their abusers/captors.
In this video I give an explanation of Stockholm Syndrome, how it relates to narcissistic abuse, and finally how it relates to my experience being the daughter of a narcissistic mother.

Resources:
Love and Stockholm Syndrome: The Mystery of Loving an Abuser by Joseph M. Carver, PH.D., Clinical Psychologist
http://drjoecarver.makeswebsites.com/clients/49355/File/love_and_stockholm_syndrome.html

Disclaimer:
I am not a mental health professional nor am I an academic expert on Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) or complex post traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD). I am here to share my story, both past and present, as I continue on a journey of awakening and recovery from CPTSD.

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