I Need A Distraction From My Thoughts & Work Isn’t Doing It
After almost five years of not working, can you believe I am being driven to boredom by this job. I sit here waiting for the phone to ring. When the boss comes out of his office I try to look busy. I try to look like I wasn’t just looking at social media, or playing […]
8 Ways to Naturally Reduce Anxiety
Here are 8 things that I am doing to help reduce my anxiety naturally. Eating clean – watch what you put into your body. For me clean eating means not eating those things which cause inflammation in the body, because inflammation in the body can also affect mental health. Quit Caffeine – I am quitting […]
Repressed Memories of Possible Child Sexual Abuse
*Potential Trigger* What are Repressed Memories? When we are very young children an event such as sexual abuse can be so traumatic to us that we will bury all memory of the abuse ever happening. It never stays buried though. These memories will lay dormant until a time that our brains feel we are in […]
Wash Your Mouth Out With Soap
#Potential Trigger* I’m going to start writing about the memories of abuse from my childhood that come to me, as they come to me. I’m not sure what prompted this particular memory, but here it is. If I swore my mother would take me to the bathroom and wash my mouth out with soap. She […]
Hoovering Again
They’re hoovering again…. If they really loved me they would leave me alone. They think they can make things go back to the way they were before. They can’t. Things can never go back to the way they were before. I know too much. The veil has been lifted and it cannot be replaced. It […]
Christmas & CPTSD: 'Tis The Season To Be Triggered
I have been going through a lot of emotional turmoil this weekend. I don’t know what triggered it. Maybe passing by my sister after not seeing her for over a year. Maybe it’s the time of year getting to me. I’ve been feeling detached from life, but I think that is because I have been […]
You have CPTSD: Now What?
Narcissistic abuse is so insidious that it is common to not realize what is going on before it is too late. By the time you realize something is wrong, you have already fallen victim to the manipulations and abusive tactics of the narcissist in your life and are suffering from the symptoms of complex post […]
Common Symptoms of CPTSD According to Pete Walker
https://youtu.be/pts3YOqTJQI What is CPTSD? CPTSD is a more severe form of PTSD. In his book, Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving, Pete Walker lists the 5 most common features that differentiate CPTSD from PTSD. The 5 most common symptoms of CPTSD: emotional flashbacks toxic shame self abandonment a vicious inner/outer critic social anxiety CPTSD is […]