I just had a memory of my mother shrieking and then yelling “why are you doing this to me?” My heart felt like a ball of fear. That’s all I could feel. Fear, and this tightness in my chest. Funny how a memory can make me feel the physical feelings of fear I felt as […]
They’re hoovering again…. If they really loved me they would leave me alone. They think they can make things go back to the way they were before. They can’t. Things can never go back to the way they were before. I know too much. The veil has been lifted and it cannot be replaced. It […]
I have been going through a lot of emotional turmoil this weekend. I don’t know what triggered it. Maybe passing by my sister after not seeing her for over a year. Maybe it’s the time of year getting to me. I’ve been feeling detached from life, but I think that is because I have been […]
https://youtu.be/pts3YOqTJQI What is CPTSD? CPTSD is a more severe form of PTSD. In his book, Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving, Pete Walker lists the 5 most common features that differentiate CPTSD from PTSD. The 5 most common symptoms of CPTSD: emotional flashbacks toxic shame self abandonment a vicious inner/outer critic social anxiety CPTSD is […]
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It’s the oddest thing. KNOWING something happened, yet not having a complete visual memory. It’s coming back to me. Bit by bit. I have a partial memory. It’s the beginning of something happening. The part just before my brain says something is not right, and survival mode takes over. I’m going to make sure people […]
Remember the good old days when your website was “under construction” while you were editing it. Now, you can edit away while your readers continue reading like nothing was happening. I wanted to inform you all that I just finished importing blog posts from my original blog to this one. It is a blog I started when I […]