Narcissism - Healing from CPTSD

Am I A Narcissist?

Jan 23, 2018Poking Holesc-ptsd, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex trauma, cptsd, daughter of a narcissistic mother, donm, Narcissism, self reflection, Stockholm syndrome

10 Signs You Might Be Dealing With a Narcissist

Nov 22, 2017Poking Holesanxiety, confusion, CPTSD Recovery, deceit, lies, Narcissism, narcissist, Narcissistic Abuse, npd, youtube

You feel stressed out after spending time with them, and you’re not sure why. 2. You have conflicting feelings for them. For example, they drive you crazy, but you love them so much. 3. You tell them something you consider good news for you, and they don’t seem pleased for you. 4. You show them […]

Narcissistic Abuse: Sometimes, it is the Not Knowing

Aug 16, 2017Poking Holeschild abuse, children of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, denial, depression, dissociation, dysfunctional families, family dysfunction, healing, mindfulness, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Personality Disordercovert narcissist, npd

When it comes to narcissistic abuse, especially that of the covert variety, it can be hard for us to put a finger on what is happening to us. Your awareness is limited to the knowledge that there is an internal struggle within. The struggle is for your awareness. The innate response is to block it […]

Watch "A Weekend with my Narcissistic In-Laws" on YouTube

Aug 2, 2017Poking Holeschildren of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, denial, dysfunctional families, family dysfunction, golden child, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Grandmother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, No Contact, The Scapegoat Child, Videobody image, body shaming, daughter of narcissistic mother, dissociation, dysfunctional family, emotional abuse, excess weight, facebook, fat, humiliation, narc dad, narcissistic father, narcissistic parent, narcmom, npd

https://youtu.be/vsm61jpIyk0 I just got back from a weekend with my narcissistic in-laws. My narcissistic father in-law married his narcissistic girlfriend. Once again, I am still realizing the shots they threw in their sick covert manner. I so wish I had recorded the toasts. All of her families’ toasts, including her own, were about what she/they […]

On Being Silenced by Narcissistic Mother

Jul 19, 2017Poking Holes3 Commentschildren of narcissistic mothers, complex post traumatic stress disorder, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, developmental delays, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic moms, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, The Lost Child

As a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence. I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I […]

My Scapegoat Sister – "It isn't just the golden children that become narcissists"

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Growing up, we were close, both in age, and emotionally. We have always been mistaken as twins, and still to this day somebody will call one of us by the other’s name. I noticed things changing when she became a teenager and was drinking a lot and getting into trouble. Contrary to what you hear about […]

When the Narcissistic Mother Hoovers

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I got a text from my narcissistic mother on Sunday. I haven’t received any communication from her for over a year because I had her blocked from my phone. Somehow, she got through anyway. I am feeling very triggered by this. I keep catching myself getting pulled into an emotional flashback several times a day. […]

Dysfunctional Family Roles: The Lost Child

Mar 22, 2017Poking Holesc-ptsd, children of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, CPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, depression, dysfunctional families, family, family dynamic, family dysfunction, golden child, healing, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, The Lost Child, Videochild abuse, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, cptsd, dysfunctional family roles, lost child, narcissistic mothers, scapegoat child

I am the lost child of my dysfunctional family. This is an introduction to role of the lost child in a dysfunctional family. Children from dysfunctional families who have been traumatically abused or abandoned develop Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD). https://youtu.be/L4bGJnY62_o