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Can a Narcissist Do Better?

Nov 8, 2018admin1 Commentnarcissistic motheracceptance, acon, adult child of a narcissistic mother, cognitive dissonance, cptsd, daughter of narcissistic mother, donm, Narcissistic Abuse, no contact, npd mom

Trying to come to terms with this whole no contact thing. Am I in this for life, or am I waiting until I feel stronger? Was my mom doing the best that she could? You know the whole “when you know better you do better”? Was she doing the best she knew how? Was she […]

Watch "My Narcissistic Mother 1" on YouTube

Sep 24, 2017Poking HolesCPTSD Recoveryacon, c-ptsd, child abuse, childhood trauma, Children of Narcissistic parents, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex trauma, cptsd, daughter of a narc mom, daughter of narcissistic mother, dysfunctional family, Narcissistic Abuse, npd

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Watch "A Weekend with my Narcissistic In-Laws" on YouTube

Aug 2, 2017Poking Holeschildren of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, denial, dysfunctional families, family dysfunction, golden child, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Grandmother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, No Contact, The Scapegoat Child, Videobody image, body shaming, daughter of narcissistic mother, dissociation, dysfunctional family, emotional abuse, excess weight, facebook, fat, humiliation, narc dad, narcissistic father, narcissistic parent, narcmom, npd

https://youtu.be/vsm61jpIyk0 I just got back from a weekend with my narcissistic in-laws. My narcissistic father in-law married his narcissistic girlfriend. Once again, I am still realizing the shots they threw in their sick covert manner. I so wish I had recorded the toasts. All of her families’ toasts, including her own, were about what she/they […]

Antidepressants for CPTSD – Controversial Subject?

Feb 22, 2017Poking HolesCPTSD Recoveryantidepressants, anxiety, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, cptst symptoms, daughter of narcissistic mother, depression, donm, emotional flashbacks, golden child, mental health, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic mothers, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, social anxiety, ssris, therapy, trigger, Video, vlog, youtube

I recently posted a video on my youtube channel that was a catch up video, and in that video I talked about the latest hoovering attempt by my golden child sister, self care, and future video content ideas. Link to the video is located at the end of blog post. I also talk about antidepressants […]

My Body Remembers – Somatic Flashbacks

Dec 6, 2016Poking HolesCPTSD Recoveryanxiety, anxiety attack, baby girl, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, daughter of narcissistic mother, daughters, depression, dissociation, donm, emotional abuse, emotional flashback, emotional injury, emotional manipulation, golden child sister, lost child, malignant narcissist, mental health, my story, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, panic attack, recovery, scapegoat sister, sisters, somatic flashback, somatic memory, somatic pain, trigger

I think somebody hurt me really bad when I was little…too little to remember. I can’t be sure who, but at such a young age it can only be somebody from my immediate family of origin. I think it was either my narcissistic mother, or my 2nd eldest sister who I believe is a malignant […]

Narcissism: Ups and Downs

Nov 15, 2015Poking Holescptsd, Narcissistic Abuse, No Contactchildhood trauma, daughter of narcissistic mother, narcissistic mother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, no contact

I’m up and I’m down. I’m so confused. I still wish there was something I could do to make this all go away. I think I could go to my mom and beg for her forgiveness. This would be followed by her saying I better get on some meds and go talk to a counsellor. […]

Narcissism: I'm the Lost Child of my family

Sep 19, 2015Poking Holescptsd, The Lost Childdaughter of narcissistic mother, daughters of narcissistic mothers, dysfunctional family, golden child, lost child, scapegoat

I think I was wrong about being a former golden child. I don’t think I ever was. I was/am the lost child. I was/am shy and introverted. I worshiped my narcissistic mother and narcissistic golden child sister so they would love me. When I began to speak up and call them on their bullshit, they […]

Narcissism: You've come to realize a harsh reality…

Jul 19, 2015Poking Holescptsddaughter of a narc mom, daughter of narcissistic mother, daughters of narcissistic mothers, narcissistic mother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, narcmom

Narcissism: Afraid and Confused

Jul 19, 2015Poking Holescptsdchildhool trauma, daughter of a narc mom, daughter of narcissistic mother, daughters of narcissistic mothers, depression, donm, golden child, narcissistic mother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, narcmom, npd, self discovery

I’m feeling confused. I feel this way when I try to sink back into the ignorance I’ve lived my life in before the discovery. The discovery that I am the daughter of a narcissistic mother. It’s a pretty big thing to wrap your head around. I’m afraid sometimes to continue because I’m afraid of what […]

Narcissism: The big discovery

Jul 18, 2015Poking Holescptsd, depression, perimenopause, ssri withdrawalanxiety, childhool trauma, daughter of a narc mom, daughter of narcissistic mother, daughters of narcissistic mothers, donm, golden child, goldenchild, narcissistic mother, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, narcmom, npd, scape goat, self discovery, zoloft

I’ve been trying to remember what prompted me to look into my mother’s behaviour while I was growing up. I guess I’m looking for a way to mark the beginning of the big discovery. Here is a little background on the past few months. I’d been diagnosed with depression and anxiety (again) last March (2014). […]

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