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Hi all, First of all, thank you for the follow. It is much appreciated. If you have followed me for a while, and if you haven’t already, please make sure you change your bookmark from pokingholesblog.com to cptsdwarrior.com. I have said this before, but it seems when I write I am feeling especially distraught. Having […]
It is 2:58 am. I am in my office. I came in here to write a blog post, but I keep shuffling papers and journals around and can’t shake this feeling of an impending emotional flashback. I am extremely irritable. I am sad. My self esteem is very low. I feel like I am a […]
What is CPTSD? CPTSD is a more severe form of PTSD. In his book, Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving, Pete Walker lists the 5 most common features that differentiate CPTSD from PTSD. The 5 most common symptoms of CPTSD: emotional flashbacks toxic shame self abandonment a vicious inner/outer critic social anxiety CPTSD is a […]
I got a text from my narcissistic mother on Sunday. I haven’t received any communication from her for over a year because I had her blocked from my phone. Somehow, she got through anyway. I am feeling very triggered by this. I keep catching myself getting pulled into an emotional flashback several times a day. […]
In this vlog I discuss the importance of being able to recognize when you are having an emotional flashback. I discuss a little more about the kinds of abuse I endured as a child. I also discuss dissociation and the fact that I may have dissociated as a small child to block out the times […]
I recently posted a video on my youtube channel that was a catch up video, and in that video I talked about the latest hoovering attempt by my golden child sister, self care, and future video content ideas. Link to the video is located at the end of blog post. I also talk about antidepressants […]
It’s been one year of no contact between myself and the narcissistic mother. I have only had contact in the past year with one sister, but sadly that also ended last month. I have basically been mourning for a family that lives in the same small town that I do. Weird, but also necessary. I […]