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She likes the shadows…

Aug 21, 2019adminCPTSD Recoveryblogging, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, developmental trauma, journalling, recovery, trauma, writing

Watch “Learning to Trust Again & Figuring Out the Essence of Recovery | Vlog #4” on YouTube

Nov 20, 2018adminCPTSD Recoverycptsd, recovery, trust

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CPTSD Warrior Self Care Routine

May 23, 2018adminCPTSD Recoveryanxiety relief, c-ptsd, checklist, childhood trauma, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, CPTSD Recovery, cptsd symptoms, cptsdrecovery, daughter of a narcissistic mother, downloadable pdf file, emotional flashback, healing, meditation, mental health, recovery, self care, Symptoms of CPTSD, Video, youtube

As promised I am providing you with a downloadable copy of the CPTSD Warrior Self Care Routine. This routine was made to help me reduce my symptoms of CPTSD. If you haven’t watched the video yet where I explain how I use this checklist see the video at end of this blog post. I have […]

CPTSD Recovery: Creating My Authentic Life on The Sims 4

Nov 23, 2017Poking Holes3 CommentsCPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothersacon, adult child of a narcissistic mother, adultchildofnpdmother, anxiety, authentic self, c-ptsd, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, complex trauma, donm, gamer, gaming, gaming for cptsd recovery, healing, live broadcast, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, npd, npd mom, playstation 4, ps4, recovery, social anxiety, socializing, sony, the sims 4, Video, youtube, youtube gaming, youtuber

I had this idea to create “My Authentic Life” on The Sims 4 where I would make a life based on choosing things I wouldn’t normally allow myself to choose. I’ve played the 2 player Sims games back when they still did that. I wish they still did that. Why don’t they still do that? Now, […]

Creating Conflict because of my CPTSD

Oct 29, 2017Poking HolesCPTSD Recoveryacon, anger, awakening, c-ptsd, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, conflict, cptsd, critical, daughter of a narcissistic mother, donm, healing journey, outer critic, ptsd, recovery

I was reading an article about PTSD. It was called “21 Things People Don’t Realize You’re Doing Because of Your PTSD”. (Link below) I was reading through the list, which consisted of survivors sharing things they do because of their PTSD. I was identifying with most of them. Then, I got to #17 and I […]

My First Period Story as the Daughter of a Narcissistic Mother

Mar 1, 2017Poking Holesc-ptsd, children of narcissistic mothers, Children of Narcissistic parents, complex post traumatic stress disorder, CPTSD Recovery, daughters of narcissistic mothers, dysfunctional families, Narcissistic Abuse, narcissistic abuse recovery, narcissistic families, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, perimenopause, psychological disorders, psychology, ptsd, The Lost Child, Videoanxiety, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, daughters, embarrassment, enabling father, first period story, fishing story, humiliation, mental health, my story, Narcissism, narcissistic mother, narcissistic parent, recovery, shame, story time, toxic mom, vlog

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My Body Remembers – Somatic Flashbacks

Dec 6, 2016Poking HolesCPTSD Recoveryanxiety, anxiety attack, baby girl, complex post traumatic stress disorder, complex ptsd, complex trauma, cptsd, daughter of narcissistic mother, daughters, depression, dissociation, donm, emotional abuse, emotional flashback, emotional injury, emotional manipulation, golden child sister, lost child, malignant narcissist, mental health, my story, Narcissism, Narcissistic Abuse, panic attack, recovery, scapegoat sister, sisters, somatic flashback, somatic memory, somatic pain, trigger

I think somebody hurt me really bad when I was little…too little to remember. I can’t be sure who, but at such a young age it can only be somebody from my immediate family of origin. I think it was either my narcissistic mother, or my 2nd eldest sister who I believe is a malignant […]