I spent the past 11 years being crushed by guilt because I didn’t make it back to see my father before he passed away in the hospital from lung cancer. The last day I saw him was in the hospital on Father’s day in 2010. He passed away early in the morning the day we […]
When I told my EMDR therapist that I was still triggered by the sounds of the neighbour upstairs she reminded me that I was supposed to be using the thought replacement strategy we used during the previous session. I started using it and I am so happy to report that I am no longer triggered […]
I filmed this video to document what is happening to me when I hear the loud TV from upstairs. I am finding it triggering still, even after the emdr session. Watch video for more. https://youtu.be/9K8sj3dSSTs
I talked to my EMDR therapist about The lady upstairs. My husband also ran into her and she said something peculiar. Watch video for more. https://youtu.be/KSPllxY9c7U
Dear litttle me, I forgive you.It was never your fault.I forgive you for being so vulnerable.I forgive you for being so frozen.I forgive you for being so scared.I forgive you for all the ways you tried to survive.I forgive you for all the things you have done in order to survive. Forgiving ourselves is one […]
The new upstairs neighbour banged on the floor when I was playing music and making coffee in the kitchen! OMG, I was so triggered! My music wasn’t even that loud. It was playing on my phone and it doesn’t go that loud. If I really want to play some music I use my blue tooth […]
The new upstairs neighbour moved in. I was surprised at how triggered I was by the sounds. Watch video for more. https://youtu.be/OlWtJxHdZ8I
I went for my third ketamine infusion and this experience was better than the last one. During the infusion I had beautiful visions of being on a mountain top. The wind blowing through the wild flowers and sedge grasses surrounding a small alpine lake, making them appear to be dancing to the music. As this […]
