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As a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence. I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I […]
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Personal ReflectionsI feel like I am stuck in a freeze state sometimes. That is my main response to trauma. I tend to freeze and dissociate by distracting myself or zoning out. When I’m feeling especially triggered I tend to be drawn to my bed and want to lay down and stay there. I am wondering if
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Personal ReflectionsIn Canada, the country that I live in, the use of physical force on children is an exception to the Criminal Code of Canada. It is illegal to hit someone else, but if you are their parent or legal guardian you are allowed to hit your kids from ages 2 to a teenager. As long
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Personal ReflectionsAs a young child, I was silenced. Anything that could cause my narcissistic mother to feel bad would invoke a psychotic shriek fest and physical assault, which was enough to traumatize anybody into silence. I became that shy quiet kid that would play quietly with her dolls and try not to make mommy angry. I
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Personal ReflectionsI have been struggling with recovery even after being 20 months no contact with my narcissistic mother. I have been doing some research, which has led me to my problem. Acceptance. Meredith’s Video on her youtube channel, Inner Integration: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5oGdY9MqISw Skip ahead to 10:36 to get to the part I am referring to. Resources:This is
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Personal ReflectionsI am the daughter of a narcissistic mother, and I have Stockholm Syndrome. Stockholm Syndrome is a strong emotional bond between an abused person and their abuser, also known as a Trauma Bond. Victims of Stockholm Syndrome develop compassion and loyalty toward their abusers/captors.
In this video I give an explanation of Stockholm Syndrome, how it relates to narcissistic abuse, and finally how it relates to my experience being the daughter of a narcissistic mother.
Resources:
Love and Stockholm Syndrome: The Mystery of Loving an Abuser by Joseph M. Carver, PH.D., Clinical Psychologist
http://drjoecarver.makeswebsites.com/clients/49355/File/love_and_stockholm_syndrome.html
Disclaimer:
I am not a mental health professional nor am I an academic expert on Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) or complex post traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD). I am here to share my story, both past and present, as I continue on a journey of awakening and recovery from CPTSD.
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Personal ReflectionsI wrote this letter last year. I never meant for her to ever read it. This is for all the survivors of narcissistic mothers out there.
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