EMDR #4 & The Lady Upstairs
I talked to my EMDR therapist about The lady upstairs. My husband also ran into her and she said something peculiar. Watch video for more. https://youtu.be/KSPllxY9c7U
Dear Little Me, A Message of Forgiveness for my Inner Child
Dear litttle me, I forgive you.It was never your fault.I forgive you for being so vulnerable.I forgive you for being so frozen.I forgive you for being so scared.I forgive you for all the ways you tried to survive.I forgive you for all the things you have done in order to survive. Forgiving ourselves is one […]
New Upstairs Neighbour Banging on the Floor
The new upstairs neighbour banged on the floor when I was playing music and making coffee in the kitchen! OMG, I was so triggered! My music wasn’t even that loud. It was playing on my phone and it doesn’t go that loud. If I really want to play some music I use my blue tooth […]
Noise From New Neighbour Moving In
The new upstairs neighbour moved in. I was surprised at how triggered I was by the sounds. Watch video for more. https://youtu.be/OlWtJxHdZ8I
Ketamine Infusion #3
I went for my third ketamine infusion and this experience was better than the last one. During the infusion I had beautiful visions of being on a mountain top. The wind blowing through the wild flowers and sedge grasses surrounding a small alpine lake, making them appear to be dancing to the music. As this […]
Update on Ketamine & EMDR
https://youtu.be/nPPCOFGXngs As promised, here is an update on how I’ve been doing since my Ketamine treatment 5 weeks ago. I also give an update on my virtual EMDR sessions. I think I’ve had 7 or 8 sessions by now. I’ve been going once per week and also seeing a counselor once per week for talk […]
You Are Allowed to Talk
As a child growing up in a dysfunctional home with a narcissistic parent, I learned early on that it wasn’t safe to speak up about the things that went on in my home. I learned by seeing what happened to my siblings when they spoke up. They were bullied by our mother. They were our […]
Do Others With CPTSD Do This Too?
K, so I’m sitting around feeling stuck because I have so much I want to do, but I am surrounded by chaos and can’t get started on anything until I take care of the chaos. Do your surroundings reflect what is going on inside your head? https://youtu.be/73UKLWAyt3w