The new upstairs neighbour banged on the floor when I was playing music and making coffee in the kitchen! OMG, I was so triggered! My music wasn’t even that loud. It was playing on my phone and it doesn’t go that loud. If I really want to play some music I use my blue tooth […]
The new upstairs neighbour moved in. I was surprised at how triggered I was by the sounds. Watch video for more. https://youtu.be/OlWtJxHdZ8I
I went for my third ketamine infusion and this experience was better than the last one. During the infusion I had beautiful visions of being on a mountain top. The wind blowing through the wild flowers and sedge grasses surrounding a small alpine lake, making them appear to be dancing to the music. As this […]
https://youtu.be/nPPCOFGXngs As promised, here is an update on how I’ve been doing since my Ketamine treatment 5 weeks ago. I also give an update on my virtual EMDR sessions. I think I’ve had 7 or 8 sessions by now. I’ve been going once per week and also seeing a counselor once per week for talk […]
As a child growing up in a dysfunctional home with a narcissistic parent, I learned early on that it wasn’t safe to speak up about the things that went on in my home. I learned by seeing what happened to my siblings when they spoke up. They were bullied by our mother. They were our […]
K, so I’m sitting around feeling stuck because I have so much I want to do, but I am surrounded by chaos and can’t get started on anything until I take care of the chaos. Do your surroundings reflect what is going on inside your head? https://youtu.be/73UKLWAyt3w
A lot of my struggles are from complicated grief from going no contact with my narcissistic mother and 5 siblings. The decision to go no contact wasn’t done lightly & was the hardest, yet most necessary, thing I’ve ever done in my life. It’s a deeply sad thing to learn that your own mother doesn’t […]
