As a child growing up in a dysfunctional home with a narcissistic parent, I learned early on that it wasn’t safe to speak up about the things that went on in my home. I learned by seeing what happened to my siblings when they spoke up. They were bullied by our mother. They were our […]
I’m odd. I want to be close to other people, and can sometimes allow myself to be. I also want to be alone, and as soon as somebody seems to want to spend time with me, I revolt. Why do I do this? The people that I trusted the most betrayed me, Stabbed me in […]
I keep having these thoughts that I need to stop obsessing over my family. Then I remind myself that I’m not obsessing, I have Complex PTSD (cptsd). The nature of cptsd is that our traumatic past keeps a hold on us, not the other way around. It’s not that we can’t let go of the […]
Not feeling so good this morning. I feel less than and like I’m not good enough. I’m having an emotional flashback. I always try to figure out what triggered me to feel this way. It helps me to understand myself and my cptsd better. Before I started feeling this way I was telling myself that […]
3 years ago, I uploaded this video to my YouTube channel.
https://youtu.be/qZsiJ4cK5wY
